And it's too big to carry by myself. I promised, I swore, that I wouldn't tell anyone here, and I need to post this, and I'm sorry that it's here, I'm sorry. But like I said... I need to tell and I can't anywhere else.
I have major feelings for a guy here, Jamel. I've had them since the beginning of the school year. I knew that he didn't return my feelings. I knew it. But we became essentially fuck buddies. Because his thoughts were, "Yeah, I definitely find you attractive, and you have qualities I like in a girl, a lot of them, actually. But I would only fuck you, never date you." I was cool with that, surprisingly.
He has feelings for an RA on the first floor, my friend, Kate. He didn't think anything would happen with that, but I knew if they both got drunk and were together alone, things would happen. Things happened as I predicted. He told me the things that transpired last night. A few details I didn't want to know, but I did ask what was bothering him. Before they went to...
Happy holidays from Kat & Chris, bros and brofinas. I probably won't be visiting much anymore. Place is sorta dead again. I'll check back here and there, but if you respond to something I posted, don't expect it to be responded to quickly. Anyway, hope you all have a cool xmas and get some cool shit.
Live and let live, peace to all, and good day.